I slowly realized that I needed to reteach myself the meaning and essence of photography for myself. I chose to do that through analog film. Film causes you to slow down - something I am terrible at - and to think, to really think. You have to slow your entire process of capturing a moment, and preserve the moments that you feel are the most important.
I understand that my film work isn't the cleanest, the most clear or perfected - I rarely ever edit my film just because I enjoy the purity of a film photo as it is. I think there is something to be said for capturing a single moment in time, forever - just as it was in the moment. There's something interesting and comforting that we find in nostalgia and my work, I'm finding, is centered around that feeling. I'm always so interested by how the medium affects the way the moment is kept in time and film sure has a mind of it's own.
Dealing with physical film creates a physical photograph, which is becoming so foreign and lost now in the world of digital. There's something so special and captivating about tangibly holding a moment in time. My favorite thing about this capability is that fingerprints, scratches, light leaks, water marks, folds and everything in between alter this moment in their own way that are imperfectly beautiful due to the physicality of the capture.
The feeling of nostalgia is one that I want to preserve and amplify in the most authentic way possible. I've found that feeling in film more than anything else. Nostalgia is a feeling that I feel easily and it's one of comfort and longing and warmth that brings a memory back to life. One of the most beautiful things about photography is that you can bring things back from the past with just a single capture...and I'm loving the ability to do just that through film with all the imperfections that come with it.